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Text from Mearcstapa to Teagan: hey teagan. i just wanted to give you a heads-up, glitch and i had a bit of an awkward talk. turns out we knew each other Over There, and i didn't remember until now. if he gets weird or in his head about it, better you and sturm know what's up.
Teagan: oh damn
okay
knew each other how?
i killed him. at least once that i remember and have dreamed vividly about, quite possibly more that i don't remember.
which is why the talk was awkward.
oh, shit, you were a mob?
okay. I'll talk to him about it
not a mob. border patrol. the monster that dealt with players who went out of bounds. fucking nightmare panther monster.
yeah, a mobile game piece, a mob. or at least, that's what glitch thought they were. constructs, not other players in any sense
so I'm sure that's fucking with his head
probably, yeah. but you're his player two. if he's going to talk about any of it all for real, it's going to be you. for what it's worth, he did good job of stowing it when I brought it up. was scared, got angry instead.
i'm still working through the fear. knowing that there's a whole realm i don't really remember is pretty big and messy.
I'll see if I can get him to talk to me, yeah. And that -- sounds like Glitch, yeah. 'Get angry instead' is very ... him
Yeah, it's pretty scary when shit you didn't know existed because you couldn't remember it surfaces. It's like suddenly seeing a shark fin when you're treading water
yeah. so do you stick your head under the water to see if someone got cutesy and put a fin on their dog or if it's a real shark? for me, the answer's always yes. always better to know.
I mean, also, there might be other sharks under there, to torture the metaphor, but yeah
just make sure there's someone around to throw you a life ring or row out with a raft if things get real bad.
word
thanks for the heads up. are YOU doing okay?
on what level? i just found out i was a fucking nightmare panther monster. which...really, given all the kitten jokes and the panther armor from drake, that makes sense, the wyrd knew what i was. border-walker, that's what mearcstapa MEANS. it all makes perfect sense, in a crooked, fucked-up way.
seriously, though, my clarity's solid, and i'm trying not to obsess.
As long as you're solid and trying not to obsess
finding out shit that you didn't know was there and didn't remember can really fuck with us
and by us I mean Darklings
more than everyone else
i know. it definitely pushed at me. but i'm not showing my usual signs of clarity problems, so i'm not too worried. and i live with a joyeux.
good things, all
we oughta hang out sometime again. i need to socialize more with people outside the partners.
that would be good, yeah
I've been sort of not socializing anyway and I should do that more often
maybe go out and do something. find an abandoned building to break into, or find an axe throwing range or something.
i'm not drinking anymore, so hanging out in bars isn't the height of fun for me atm.
i'm down
is that a "don't offer me anything because I have a problem" not drinking?
no. but it's in support of someone who does have a problem.
word
making sure i know what I'm responding to so I know how to respond
yeah, no. i'm trying to help jack.
I figured but I wasn't gonna ask
thank you. that said, i know a few good pastry shops, or places to get milkshakes, so i can still be social and stuff.
yeah word
Sturm doesn't drink so it's not like I'm not aware. She likes that ice cream place, too
yeah, and i know she brought home a ton of pastries after the last time i hung out with her.
yeah that was super baller
anyway. thank you for talking to me. you're awesome, and if there's anything i can do for you, please let me know?
word. thank you for the heads up about Glitch, I super appreciate it. I'm good right now but I look forward to hanging out
me too.
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