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S: hey
M: hello, how may i help you?
S: hmm?
S: wait help? Lol I'm just sayin hi
M: oh. hi sturm.
S: i heard sm rumbles about u mayb n a motley with lux n i was like oh i should say hi. Or congrats?
M: motley? no, nothing like that. polycule, maybe. but they're not inherently congruent.
S: i figured. The source of the rumor was prob someone for who the two things are tied.
S: or rather, gossip. Not rumor
M: part of direct action. let's see, most likely either jacky or teagan. i don't think i've managed to signify to any of the rest of them significantly enough for them to pick up on gossip regarding me.
M: then again, i'm not really sure i signify to the others, either, beyond as a curiosuty or a liability.
S: no and no
S: but they talk so who is to say
S: but thats not important I guess
S: just wanted 2 say congrats if things r looking more srs
M: thank you. i don't know. they might be. things are always in flux.
M: i'm sorry, i'm not very good right now.
S: thats ok. U dont have 2 always be good.
S: u need nething?
M: check in once in a while? i like talking to you.
S: of course : )
S: everything ok aside from that?
S: like. U wanna talk or nething?
M: a lot of things are not okay right now, and i'm trying to take care of them all.
S: like what?
M: the mob, vampires, spring court fashion show, relationships on a personal level, pissing off ari, vampires again but worse, vampires yet again but also they used to be fae-touched, joyeauxes being nosy,
M:people who knew me from chicago showing up here...
S: thats a lot of stuff. i can help keep an eye on the crime shit. N i can scowl at the joyeauxes if u want? Also isnt more ppl from back home good?
M: i have been assuming you are keeping an eye on the crime shit, yes. as for the joyeauxes, they mean well. they're trying to help. they only want the best for me, by their arbitrary projected standards of 'the best'.
S: i am, so dont worry about it then. :p
S: and also u dont owe them being up 2 their standards. If they r makin u uncomfortable they r the 1s fuckin up.
M: they cannot be fucking up every single time they're around me. can they?
S: i fuck up nearly 100% of the times im around some ppl. So can they. They dont have a monopoly on being emotionally intelligent just bc they r springs n u should listen to the voice that says ur uncomfortable sometimes. Dont let it run wild but ur body has that response for a reason.
M: is that a winter lesson?
S: yea. Let yourself be upset sometimes. Its good 4 u
M: people keep telling me that. but i refuse to be upset in front of anyone i don't trust completely.
S: thats fair but consider: being upset is a tool in ur emotional/communication arsenal. U should tell those springs theyre overdoing it and hurting rather than helping. If they still think they kno whats best then ill put em on top of somethin' tall.
M: being upset is a failure in communication, isn't it? because you can't articulate your feelings clearly enough.
S: nah. Articulation is only something u need when ur explaining the feelings later. If ur upset ur fuckin upset and that *is* the feeling
M: sounds fake but okay.
M: i'm not good at feelings, especially if i don't have the words.
S: no worries. Im not good at the words part. We cn work 2gether on that.
M: are you serious about that?
S: yeah. Y?
M: because i wasn't sure if you were joking with me. i'd like that a lot.
S: y does everyone think I make jokes like this all the time now???
M: because i'm not used to people offering actual useful help instead of pithily giving me broad generic advice that is intended to help the version of me they've built up in their heads instead of the actual person???
S: thas fair. Well Im not joking n tbh spring shit always seems fuckin trite as hell for this exact reason. Fuckin Nacogdoches was the worst with that shit.
M: chicago had some good ones, but the ones who were bad were Awful.
S: oh? Hopefully nobody who followed u here lol
M: no comment.
S: that doesnt fill me with confidence mearc
M: of the two springs who have followed me here, one is a highly competent therapist.
S: thats.... good
S: the other?
M: is the reason i'm in trouble with ari right now.
S:oof
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